paused for dramatic effect...

I have not written in awhile and I wish I could say that in the absence of words, I had figured out all the problems in my life. Unfortunately with all the pondering and nostalgic moments I have had, I am still no farther from my problems... but enough of that.

Life has been pretty crazy as of late.
I went to Portland for the first time and had a blast watching one of my best friends get married!
Did some hiking and chilling with my bros.
Came back to find that a lot of people are quitting at work.
Played paintball and dominated with some dudes Shocker NXT.
Found out another one of my best friends just got engaged!
I started walking or longboarding to work everyday.
Been drinking a bit more.
Been sleeping a bit more too.

Here are some pics:

 Feast your eyes upon the triple flex!

Aww Yeah.

life

"This is your life, are you who you want to be" - Switchfoot

God, I want to be so much more than the person I have become. At the end of everyday I am just overwhelmed with such discontentment. And well honestly I don't like the guy I see in the mirror, he's a real douche. This needs to be fixed.

Feels like I've been to this point a thousand times before. Tormented by the risks I don't take and the mistakes I choose to make. Selling out and settling for less over and over and over again. It seems like my only desires now are fortune, fame, and a pretty girl to take my name, but that's not really my purpose and I don't really have the capacity to handle any of those things right now.

Point of this post is to be a reminder of the realization that I just need to do better and do things for the right reasons.

God is so merciful and patient... He must be Love.