A New Beginning

All beginnings are new aren't they? Well I'm calling this new regardless.
For a long time I have been drifting not really alive and yet my pulse keeps going. My existence was  dull, apathetic, and depressing. Divine intervention is what I'm calling this new beginning because without Gods grace and mercy my life would still be a dreary existence. Now don't get me wrong I have been a Christian for quite some time and have seen Gods work many times in my life, but I was getting to a point where I thought that was it, that God was done with me. All that was left was me and atrophy. Today I'm starting to fight for my life. God has given me hope and has ripped me from the clutches of death. I quit Tumblr and have stopped downloading from ThePiratebay. Tumblr goes from a nice poem or picture and then straight into hardcore porn and ThePiratebay kept advertising single russian ladies in little to no clothes. To a depressed lonely guy with lustful eyes porn doesn't seem like instant death. But the moment you give in a part of you dies and then you get lost searching for satisfaction in a way it can't be found. Though it may seem appealing it's never a fair trade. Porn only takes and leaves you wanting and when it's over it's kinda like"well, what did I expect?" I am stepping away from that addiction and it's only by Gods grace that I am able to. So in writing I am only trying to illustrate that Gods Love has no bounds and that through Jesus an undeserving wretch like me can experience life and Love.


Five Iron Frenzy may have said it best,
"Healing hands of God have mercy on our unclean souls once again. Jesus Christ, light of the world burning bright within our hearts forever. Freedom means love without condition, without a beginning or an end. Here’s my heart, let it be forever Yours, only you can make every new day seem so new" -FIF